8.17.2014

Tears


This is my sweet baby Thatcher Dragon. Early this past week, she began to get sick. It appeared she had a stomach bug. What we didn't know until Tuesday was that she had a thymoma on her sternum that resulted in myasthenia gravis and megaesophagus. We had her in the hospital and they had begun treatment. On Wednesday night/Thursday morning, she developed aspiration pneumonia. This brought her downhill. Too much. On Thursday, I had to say goodbye to my absolutely beautiful, sweet, loving, kind, amazing baby girl. This is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. She was too young and this came out of nowhere. I have honestly never hurt so much. Never. I wish I could express in words how much this little girl meant to me. Her 54 lbs. seems a whole lot bigger now that it is a big hole in our life. My insides hurt. We cry. A lot. I will love her forever. We were the perfect pair, the two of us, both a little crazy. She was there for me. Always.

I miss her. 

So much.

104 comments:

  1. Melanie @ Whimsical CreationsAugust 17, 2014 at 10:08 AM

    I am sooooo sorry to hear about your loss. :( hugs!

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  2. Annette AllenAugust 17, 2014 at 10:09 AM

    Jennifer I am so sorry.. I know exactly how you feel and my heart goes out to you... sending you big hugs and lots of prayer.. hang in there sweet friend..

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  3. JanaAugust 17, 2014 at 10:11 AM

    Oh Jennifer I am so sorry. My heart aches for you and your loss.

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  4. D-August 17, 2014 at 10:12 AM

    Oh no I am so sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself.
    Hugs and prayers,
    D~
    DesignsByDragonfly.blogspot

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  5. ~amy~August 17, 2014 at 10:14 AM

    I'm soooo sorry!!!! Thinking of you!

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  6. AudreyAugust 17, 2014 at 10:19 AM

    I'm so sorry Jingle :(. We lost our sweet Sabrina earlier this summer, and I know your pain all too well. Big hugs my friend!

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  7. AnonymousAugust 17, 2014 at 10:19 AM

    Oh my God, Jennifer, it breaks my heart to read this. We lost our beautiful 10 year old Frida puppy last Thursday too, so I really, really know what you're going through. The emptiness and pain are simply devastating.I send all my love to you and Sean. Jas ans Rodrigo send big hugs too.

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  8. jayneAugust 17, 2014 at 10:23 AM

    So sorry that you lost Thatcher, Jennifer.

    I lost my sweet, Zoe Rosebud, 2 years ago, and it still hurts. She was a yellow lab and my companion for 14 years, but her 2nd bout with Cancer was too much.

    Cherish the time you had with her; she knows you love her!

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  9. Juliana Michaels 17turtlesAugust 17, 2014 at 10:24 AM

    Loads of hugs! We lost Milo in May to cancer, so I know the heart ache and pain you are feeling.

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  10. Jen GallacherAugust 17, 2014 at 10:25 AM

    I am so, so sorry. Your heart must feel so broken right now.

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  11. Michelle WilliamsAugust 17, 2014 at 10:26 AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss! I had to part with my dog this year and it was so painful. I will be praying for you. :(

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  12. PialiAugust 17, 2014 at 10:29 AM

    I'm soooo sorry! Big hugs to you.

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  13. AnonymousAugust 17, 2014 at 10:29 AM

    So, so sorry for your lose, pets are our family so we always feel heart renching pain when we loose one of them. Huge hugs!

    PattiM
    (Pattie's passion)

    I scrap so all moments are remembered!

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  14. JenniferAugust 17, 2014 at 10:39 AM

    My heart goes out to you! I am so sorry for your loss. Our fur babies are such an important part of our lives, we need them as much as they need us. Many hugs to you!

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  15. UnknownAugust 17, 2014 at 10:43 AM

    So sorry for your loss! My heart is broken for you. Sending hugs across the miles I wish were real.

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  16. buglvr2010August 17, 2014 at 10:46 AM

    Jennifer, I am soooo sorry for your loss. There is nothing like the love of a good dog. I will keep you all in prayers.

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  17. MelissaAugust 17, 2014 at 10:47 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I know you loved your fur baby with all of your heart. Sending big hugs your way.

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  18. JennyAugust 17, 2014 at 10:48 AM

    My heart goes out to you Jennifer! I have two dogs I adore and can't imagine life without them.

    Sending big hugs!

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  19. Karen B.August 17, 2014 at 11:01 AM

    Thinking of you. Never an easy thing to go through... :(

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  20. DenisseAugust 17, 2014 at 11:02 AM

    I'm so sorry Jingle, I cannot imagine what pain you must be feeling. I pray for healing. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  21. Samantha MannAugust 17, 2014 at 11:05 AM

    i am so sorry. there will always be a paw sized hole in your heart with her loss. nothing will replace it. losing a pet is devastating. they're family. they're an extention of you. much love, thoughts and prayers to you during this time. :( words just can't be enough. so sorry.

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  22. sassypackratAugust 17, 2014 at 11:09 AM

    I'm so very sorry for the loss of your furry friend. They bring so much joy into our lives but their loss is heartbreaking.

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  23. Indy's DesignsAugust 17, 2014 at 11:32 AM

    My heart goes out to you! I understand your pain. May your baby always remain in your heart and memories!

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  24. AJAugust 17, 2014 at 11:34 AM

    oh Jennifer- I am sorry. I know how hard it is, we had to put one down last year and it was rough. big hugs to you-

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  25. AJAugust 17, 2014 at 11:34 AM

    oh Jennifer- I am sorry. I know how hard it is, we had to put one down last year and it was rough. big hugs to you-

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  26. Jocelyn OlsonAugust 17, 2014 at 11:41 AM

    I feel so bad for you, Jennifer. I'm so sorry! It's never easy to lose a dog. They have an unconditional love and a total devotion. :( You did everything you could for her. While she passed away too early, I'm sure she had a happy life.

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  27. SindhuAugust 17, 2014 at 12:00 PM

    So sorry to hear about this Jennifer. Though I don't have a dog, I know how hard it is to lose a pet. Take care.

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  28. Suzi McKenzieAugust 17, 2014 at 12:02 PM

    So terribly sorry to read of your loss. I know how big a whole it leaves in your heart to lose a pet, especially a young one. I lost my beautiful Bagpuss a couple of years ago now, he was only 3, so it was a terrible shock, and hurt so much. Time will ease the pain, and you'll always have your memories that you made together, and i'm sure she had a wonderful life, and will be looking down on you and sending her love. <3 xx

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  29. Giovana August 17, 2014 at 12:06 PM

    I am so very sorry, Jennifer! Hugs my friend!

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  30. Jennifer JacksonAugust 17, 2014 at 12:28 PM

    So Very sorry to hear about your loss of your best friend. Our pets are so much a part of our lives and family and I can imagine how sad it is to loose one. I will be thinking of you and hope you have lots of photos and happy memories to look back on!

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  31. Virginia L.August 17, 2014 at 12:33 PM

    I am so sorry. Too soon, too fast, too short...sending you big big hugs!

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  32. Angie TiemanAugust 17, 2014 at 12:48 PM

    I'm so sorry, Jingle, I feel your pain and it's the worst. Sending you hugs and love. You're not alone.

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  33. JamieAugust 17, 2014 at 12:51 PM

    So, so sorry Jingle. Hugs.

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  34. UnknownAugust 17, 2014 at 12:52 PM

    HUGE HUGS! I am so sorry. I was there a few years ago. It was very difficult. Know that your baby is out of pain. It took me two years to get another dog, because I loved my Jazzie so much. I didn't believe people that the pain will fade, but it did. There are so many days that I still think of My Jazzie girl always at my heels. I knew that where ever I was I could look down and she would be there. I know you will have similar memories of your baby. HUGS.... time is the only thing that will heal that hole in your heart. Just reserve a corner of your heart for her so you can keep her with you forever!

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  35. Kimberly RendinoAugust 17, 2014 at 1:04 PM

    I'm so sorry to hear that!!!! Your post made me tear up....pets are FAMILY, and losing a family member hurts beyond anything else. I lost my fur baby several years ago and it still hurts. But your life (and hers) were better for having each other in it. Hugs!!!

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  36. karen hAugust 17, 2014 at 1:21 PM

    It is so hard to lose a piece of your heart.

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  37. Rochelle SodipoAugust 17, 2014 at 1:25 PM

    My condolences Jingle.

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  38. Butterfly Reflections, Ink.August 17, 2014 at 1:35 PM

    I'm sorry for your loss and hope the pain lessens quickly. {{{hugs}}}

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  39. LysaAugust 17, 2014 at 2:39 PM

    SOOO Sorry! Big HUGSxx

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  40. Kelly JanesAugust 17, 2014 at 2:47 PM

    I am so very sorry for your loss. Having three fur children myself, my heart truly goes out to you!!

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  41. DeeptiAugust 17, 2014 at 2:50 PM

    So sorry to hear about ur loss Jen ! It is so terrible! Sending hugs and strength

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  42. Vera Yates (Ling)August 17, 2014 at 3:09 PM

    I am so sorry for your loss, Jingle. I know nothing could be said that will make you less sad. She knows you love her and may memories of her brings you comfort. Hugs.

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  43. Melissa Bove August 17, 2014 at 3:18 PM

    Oh Jennifer! I am so sorry to hear this! My heart goes out to you sweetie!!

    hugs...

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  44. JenniferAugust 17, 2014 at 3:27 PM

    What a pretty girl. So sorry.

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  45. CapescrapperAugust 17, 2014 at 3:37 PM

    Oh Jennifer, I am so sorry for the loss. {{Hugs}}

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  46. LyneenAugust 17, 2014 at 3:45 PM

    Sorry for your loss, hardest thing in life is saying good-bye forever. Glad you had such a wonderful babe in your life... comfort your self ... remember all the good times with her! My heart hurts for you!

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  47. AnonymousAugust 17, 2014 at 3:47 PM

    I am so sorry for your loss

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  48. UnknownAugust 17, 2014 at 4:00 PM

    No words can help right now...but know a lot of us have felt that kind of pain....it has been almost a year now since I lost my Maya and I still tear up when she comes to mind.....it is really really hard when you are not ready, or they are young....I am SO SO sorry for the loss of your sweet girl.....

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  49. None NoneAugust 17, 2014 at 4:15 PM

    I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Thatcher, Jingle. She was such a beautiful pup and one can tell from what your post and what you have posted about her in the past that she was well loved and adored. I am so sorry that you lost her so quickly and my heart goes out to you and your husband as you go through this very difficult time. Hugs to you!

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  50. Katie GehringAugust 17, 2014 at 4:43 PM

    Oh Jingle, I am so, so sorry about the loss of your beautiful fur-baby. Love and hugs to you! :(

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  51. richardbreaksAugust 17, 2014 at 4:57 PM

    So very sorry. The saddest days are the ones when we say goodbye. Live in the sweet memories as much as you can. Hugs.

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  52. Kristie GouletAugust 17, 2014 at 4:58 PM

    No words can help right now. I am so very sorry for your loss. Huge hugs to you! xo

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  53. DanaElayneAugust 17, 2014 at 5:17 PM

    Just brokenhearted for you! I'm so terribly sorry.

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  54. Teresa KlineAugust 17, 2014 at 5:48 PM

    hey Jingle {{{HUGS}}}..I am so very sorry, I am ONLY a doggie Mom so I know all to well what you are going through! I cannot express to you my sorrow, REALLY...I am crying with you my friend! Let me know if you need anything or want to chat. {{{HUGS}}}

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  55. Miriam PrantnerAugust 17, 2014 at 6:11 PM

    So hard. Thinking of you guys, I know what a void this leaves!

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  56. UnknownAugust 17, 2014 at 6:48 PM

    I am so sorry to hear this! I will pray for healing and I hope that one day you will be able to look back on your beloved doggie and be at peace and not feel pain. ((HUGS))

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  57. UnknownAugust 17, 2014 at 7:09 PM

    Oh Jen, I'm so very sorry for your loss. There are no words...just letting tears fall for you.

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  58. AnonymousAugust 17, 2014 at 7:32 PM

    So so very sorry Jen, this has been a very bad year for losing pets. I sent you something in FB, PM

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  59. Jen W.August 17, 2014 at 8:00 PM

    Oh Jen I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. It's always heartbreaking to have to say goodbye to these amazing members of our family but all the more devastating when they're so young. I lost my Jem at 3 years old and it destroyed me. Big love and hugs to you, Jen.

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  60. Shannon FralishAugust 17, 2014 at 8:37 PM

    My own heart hurts for your loss, Jennifer. She will always be with you.

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  61. TracyAugust 17, 2014 at 10:11 PM

    I am so so sorry for your loss Jennifer.

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  62. 3treescreations@gmail.comAugust 17, 2014 at 10:17 PM

    I am so sorry Jennifer - big hugs to you :(

    Deanne

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  63. UnknownAugust 17, 2014 at 10:34 PM

    Oh Jen, I am sooooo sorry. The loss is great. I can't say that the pain gets easier...but it becomes liveable over time. Losing a pet is devastating and I want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. {{{{HUGS}}}}}

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  64. BarbraAugust 17, 2014 at 10:37 PM

    She is beautiful. So sorry for your loss.

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  65. RyannAugust 17, 2014 at 10:45 PM

    :( I'm so sorry for your loss, Jen. Bigs hugs to you as you adjust to your new "normal". :(

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  66. arlsmom aka LyndaAugust 17, 2014 at 10:48 PM

    I am so very sorry for your loss...

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  67. Stacey SchaferAugust 18, 2014 at 12:48 AM

    So sorry jingle

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  68. BarbaraAugust 18, 2014 at 2:44 AM

    So sad, for your loss. Be strong.

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  69. donna mikasaAugust 18, 2014 at 3:52 AM

    So very sorry for your huge loss! Sending you hugs.

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  70. Shona ChambersAugust 18, 2014 at 5:24 AM

    Looking at all of these comments there certainly is a lot of love and support coming your way. Take care of yourself. So sorry xxx

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  71. Ruby CraftAugust 18, 2014 at 5:58 AM

    So sorry to read of your loss of your dear and sweet Tatcher Dragon. I still miss my Betsy and Trixie. Your tribute to your baby girl is touching and filled with love.

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  72. SandiAugust 18, 2014 at 6:07 AM

    My sincerest condolences on your loss Jennifer. My heart hurts with yours.

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  73. roseofsAugust 18, 2014 at 6:29 AM

    Oh, how immensely sad! Sometimes people don't realize what the loss of a beloved pet can mean. My heart goes out to you.

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  74. Cris G.August 18, 2014 at 6:47 AM

    Oh, such sad news... I'm really sorry for your loss. In moments like this it may help to concentrate in the good moments you spent together.
    Sending you a big hug in this difficult time.

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  75. kelAugust 18, 2014 at 6:59 AM

    sad to hear this! it sucks losing a pet:(

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  76. Lisa's Creative NicheAugust 18, 2014 at 7:01 AM

    sending hugs your way during this difficult time. Having lost my baby last year around this time I know how hard it feels even to breathe sometimes... you gave her such a beautiful life I am sure, and I wish peace for you and your family.
    Hugs,
    Lisa

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  77. CarynAugust 18, 2014 at 7:14 AM

    So, so sorry Jen. It's so hard to lose a pet - and particularly when it's so sudden. My heart is breaking for you.
    Big hugs,
    Caryn xxx

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  78. Crafty Math ChickAugust 18, 2014 at 7:56 AM

    Oh Jen, I am SO SORRY to hear of your loss, your poor Baby! I wish I could give you a real hug in person. ~ Meredith

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  79. denaliAugust 18, 2014 at 9:33 AM

    MUCH sympathy from me on the loss of your furry friend. No matter the circumstance, they just plain don't live long enough for all the love they have to give and for all the love we want to give them. Sending you {{HUGS}}

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  80. Mary Pat SiehlAugust 18, 2014 at 10:56 AM

    oh jennifer my heart goes out to you.
    i know what it is like to lose a pet (family member).
    lots of ((((hugs))))

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  81. TanjaAugust 18, 2014 at 11:20 AM

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I can imagine what you are going through ... our little furry friends just never live long enough. I sometimes fantasize that it would be wonderful if you would choose your pet soul-mate and keep him/her your whole life through.

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  82. Nancy NallyAugust 18, 2014 at 12:16 PM

    So sorry Jennifer. :( We still miss the kitty that we lost five years ago, even though we have had another one for several years. They just always own a piece of your heart. ((hugs))

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  83. YukiAugust 18, 2014 at 12:59 PM

    I'm speechless. I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how heartbreaking this must be. May the happy memories of your sweet Thatcher bring you some comfort during this difficult time ♥

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  84. UnknownAugust 18, 2014 at 1:14 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss! I lost my best friend two years ago and we still miss him so so much. The kids still talk about him and I think about him often. I will nerver forget my darling Enzo. Forever in my heart. <3 Sending you a lot of hugs!

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  85. Tracey McNeelyAugust 18, 2014 at 1:29 PM

    Oh Jennifer, I am so very very sorry for your loss. I am crying for you too. Fun babies are so precious and she is beautiful. Hugs xoxo

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  86. ShellyAugust 18, 2014 at 1:37 PM

    So sorry for your loss...lots of hugs!

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  87. JackieAugust 18, 2014 at 3:28 PM

    I am so sorry to hear of your loss.
    Our pets just work their way into our hearts and lives and we hope they will be with us forever♥ ((HUGS))

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  88. Bethany StellpflugAugust 18, 2014 at 4:33 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss Jingle. Sending you hugs!

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  89. Sallie424August 18, 2014 at 5:50 PM

    I am so very sorry for your loss. There are those of us who truly know your pain. I saw a beautiful post that gives a new way to think of the pain in our hearts. You might enjoy it also.
    http://www.lifebuzz.com/dogs-never-die/

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  90. HettieAugust 18, 2014 at 6:22 PM

    Oh Jennifer. I am so sorry to read this. And so quickly this has happened to you.
    Sending hugs your way.
    xxx

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  91. UnknownAugust 18, 2014 at 6:32 PM

    I'm sorry to hear about your heart aching for losing your friend! It's always hard when it happens, but time is a good healer. Sending big hugs,
    Ingrid xx

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  92. JeriAugust 18, 2014 at 7:19 PM

    I am so sorry, and know exactly the pain you are feeling. Recently I had to let my dear horse "go," and the vet said something beautiful, which I absolutely believe is true for our dogs and cats too. He said, "He (my horse) will just fall asleep, and he will wake up in another home." I know my horse and my precious dogs are waiting for me in that other home.

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  93. CharkAugust 18, 2014 at 7:28 PM

    She's so pretty...sorry to hear you've lost her. Hugs!

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  94. Maureen MerrittAugust 19, 2014 at 8:06 AM

    I'm so sorry :( Hugs to you!

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  95. Ohhh SnapAugust 19, 2014 at 8:34 AM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your terrible loss.

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  96. AnonymousAugust 19, 2014 at 11:05 PM

    I am just getting caught up on your blog. I am so sorry to learn about the loss of your best furry friend, Thatcher. Please know I am sending hugs your way and hope your good memories of Thatcher bring you some comfort.

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  97. Ruth GAugust 20, 2014 at 9:26 AM

    I am so sorry to hear this. My eyes were tearing up hearing about the loss of your sweet Thatcher. Wishing you peace and comfort in the coming days. (((hugs)))

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  98. LinAugust 20, 2014 at 10:29 AM

    What a sweet puppy your Thatcher was, Jennifer. The sadness will pass and you'll have wonderful memories of her. I know how hard this time is for you.....more hugs on the way!

    We had our Brandy, a lab mix, for 16 years, and he's been gone 12 years or so now, but he was such a crazy sweet being - still miss him so much. Oh the stories I could tell :)) You'll get to that point, too......

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  99. Shemaine SmithAugust 21, 2014 at 2:54 AM

    Oh no Miss J my heart aches for you! I am so very sorry for your tremendous loss. Sending you a hug.

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  100. Lorraine AAugust 21, 2014 at 3:10 AM

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    sending BIG HUGS {{O}} XXXXXXX

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  101. Diana WaiteAugust 21, 2014 at 12:58 PM

    I am truly sorry for you--my heart aches for you, I know that pain--hugs!

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  102. Larissa HeskettAugust 22, 2014 at 3:43 AM

    SOSOSOSOOSOSOSO SORRY for your Loss Sweet Jingle!!! I'm sending LOTS of HUGS your Way!! =)

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  103. cmAugust 23, 2014 at 11:39 AM

    Soooooooo sorry to hear of your loss, Jingle. I was 'mom' to two fur-babies years ago, so I totally empathize. Rainbow Bridge...that's where she is...
    Hugs~c

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  104. Cindy GrohAugust 26, 2014 at 4:30 PM

    So sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. Cancer took our baby girl early in her life and broke our hearts in two. I still miss her but it does get easier to go on each day. May you feel better today than you did that Thursday. Hugs.

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